So I'm trying like hell to be a better man. My friends all say I'm fine as I am. But the truth they don't see is that after two divorces and a tumultuous relationship of almost two years, there is definitely something going on in my head that doesn't happen with everyone. So I went to a psychiatrist and paid out of pocket to get in ASAP. The in-network pyschs didn't have openings till late March or early April. My expectation was I'd get diagnosed with ADHD, get a script for adderol, and be on my way. God has a way of reminding my that expectations aren't a good thing. I did get diagnosed with ADD (no shocker there), but also with Borderline Personality Disorder. Apparently, people who has suffered abuse tend to get it. Experiencing trauma, especially in formative years, causes person to always be on gaurd, looking for threats that aren't there, planning their exit strategies, both physical and emotional. Its a survival instinct gone haywire. The ...