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First Post in years

 I have been sober for nearly 8 years now and have no gone to an AA meeting in a couple of years.  I haven't been to a meeting REGULARY in about 5 years.  I decided to read today's daily reflection on AA's website and it was all about how we need to experience fellowship with other sober people to lead a life driven by God's will instead of our own.


Following God's will and trying each day to be His servant has brought me great success, professionally.  But I fear I'm losing sight of His will in my personal life.  God gives me clues, he gives me coincidences, and then he shouts it right to my face, but I plod along doing what brings me no joy nor joy to the people I love.  It's only when I take a risk and break the shackles of complacency and "comfort" that I am able to bring joy to others and have soul-nurturing experiences.


I know I am meant for more than accumulating material things or creating a homestead.  I was blessed (cursed?) with boundless energy and a spirit that is restless unless I've been out in the world interacting with nature and people building positive experiences.


Time to reconnect with others and let fellowship fan the flames of my God-given purpose.

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